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location: Bedroom

mood: cold

music: Better Than Me.

Alright. I am not really use to expressing my feelings out like these. I am a normal teenager that does love to talk..and be mean. and talk crap.but i really hate telling people how i am feeling or what i am thinking.I really dont know why i am like this but i think its cause i fear that people are going to use it against me if they are mad at me or something. I dont know. People are always telling me that i am really outgoing and loud and love to make people laugh. All these things are true. but i use those things to cover up what i am really feeling. I am or use to be a "emo" kidd. I did hurt me and those around me. and now i understand that those few mintues of "pain relief" werent worth the pain i felt when i knew that i hurt those that care about me. I know what you are thinking that..this is some girl that is stupid and hurt herself for attention. and thats not why i did it. I thought that i dissapointed those that i love. and i believed at the time that it was the right thing to do. but now i know that i was wrong and i am getting help. and i am a happier and better person cause i know that something is wrong with me and i am trying to fix it. So you all can say i did it for attention. but unless you have done it you will never understand why. I mean some may do it for attention. but i didnt do it for that, i thought that it would take the pain away from my mind and body. and you are all probally thinking that why would someone thats in pain cause more pain to themselves. welll i can answer that.when you hurt yoursellf. when the blood rushes from with-in you. you get butterflies. when the blood hits the surface it feels like all the pain is going out with the blood. i really cant explain it better than that. But you may have your diffrenet sides on it. but i know thats what i felt and i know now that the pain didnt wash out with the blood..it just masked it and it all came back in due time.

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location: Bedroom

mood: cold

music: Lips of an Angel.

The first blow came.


the blood rushing down my face.


the pain taking over my body.


Your hands grabbing me.


Your voice scrreaming at me.


Your love disappered in that moment.


My body went numb.


My thoughts rushed through my head.


My heart began to slow down.


Hearing your voice call 911.


Hearing the help coming.


Hearing the man i love cry.


People come and go.


People hurt and cry.


People die for your love.


My name is jane doe.

i was murdered by my boyfriend.

He beat me to death.

Because i was walking away from him.

He had hitt me before.

But i stayed cause i truley did love him.

And that love ended up killing me.

if you are with someone that hitts you.

please do something or tell someone so that you can get out of it.

i dont want to meet new people in heaven.

and ask them how did you die?
and have them say my love hit me til i was dead.

repost if you reallly do care about the people that are getting hit and killed
because their love is hitting them.

Thank you.

and Tell my love that i dont love him anymore.

if i still loved him than i would be alive right now.

but i am dead and its his fault i blame him and only him.

By:Shelby Petersen.

Inspired by every women that is in a abusive relationship.
all i wanted to say was that, people will help you. dont be like this women.
get out and get help.

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